last weekend i gave myself another self-guided tour to another city i have never been to: San Diego. it was beautiful and i had the time of my life!
somewhere between the asking strangers to take my pictures, discussing directions and things to see with the locals, and sprinting to catch my Amtrak...i decided i wouldnt trade it for anything. hitting the roadmark age of 22 has had me thinking about marriage, a full-time "real" job, and even having kids. my first thoughts are "i am not ready" but after spending a lot of time toiling the ideas around, i think that i may never be. dont get me wrong, i want to share life with someone and have my own offspring to invest my life into - but i dont want to be expected to have dinner ready at 7 for a family of 6 every night. and i wont stay put in my mediocre suburb with one 8 day vacation once a year.
i know that things dont have to be this way. i know in my life they definitely wont. but part of me is scared it will happen. one day i will look at the past 364 days of the year and realize the stencil i have fallen into. for some reason it feels good to vocalize my intent to never let this happen.
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